“Excellent, actually! I quit my job, temporarily moved in with my mom, and I’m going to travel through Asia & Australia for two & a half months.”
When friends and family ask how I’m doing, this is what I’ve found myself telling people for the last couple weeks. Not exactly my typical response! 😆
A little over two months ago, if you had asked me to predict the life that I’d be living today, I’d not have said anything even close to what I just mentioned. I would’ve assumed that I’d still be working at my comfortable, safe and relatively great job as a software engineer at an online banking company, enjoying free work lunch and saving for early retirement. I’d have also figured that my boyfriend Cameron and I would have found a new apartment around Plano and moved in together.
Alas, I’ve found that life often doesn’t work out like we all think it will — and this time, I’m happily going along with it. Change is good for us all, and my life has been overflowing with it lately.
For one, I’ve always wanted to start a blog, but I’d been constantly held back by the various negative thoughts resounding within my mind…
“A blog! Hah, what do you have that’s worthy of writing about? Do you actually think that people care about what you have to say? You already have a personal diary — that should be enough for you.”
…Yep, I’ll admit, sometimes my mind talks to me like that… and yes, sometimes it can really be an asshole, whether it’s actually right or not. 🙄
But, one of the best things about all of this change that I’ve been embracing in my life is that I can overcome the black cloud of negativity that has been a shroud over the way I think for years. After my recent spiritual awakening, it was like the metaphorical veil over my eyes had been lifted, and so many of the bad habits that I’d been cultivating started to wither and die. 😯
Wait… did he just say he had a “spiritual awakening”? Yep! But that’s a long story for another post. 😉
Anyway, I’m committed to this blog now, even if I still have doubts. Part of why I made myself tell a lot of the people that I care about that “I’m going to write a blog!” was so that I’d sort of “trick” myself into actually… y’know… doing it. I’ve found that it’s much easier for me to get things done when people have expectations for me. I know that’s not necessarily a good thing, but that’s how I was raised. I’ve operated this way for over two decades, so it’s going to take a bit more time to change that too! 😛
I’m going to try my best to keep my posts from being too lengthy, dull, or pointless. But I’m also going to work on being less filtered and just letting my thoughts pour out unfettered by offending anyone… as this is my own blog now, anyway!
So why did I finally decide to make a blog? Well, the main reason is to update my friends and family about my travels, as I leave for Asia on November 6th with no return date set yet. Secondary reasons are to have my own personal site, and to eventually get a portfolio-of-sorts up so that I can eventually find a new job in a few months.
That being said, I think I’ve written enough for my first post. Thanks for reading, and I do hope you’ll come back again!
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