New Beginnings

“Excellent, actually! I quit my job, temporarily moved in with my mom, and I’m going to travel through Asia & Australia for two & a half months.”

When friends and family ask how I’m doing, this is what I’ve found myself telling people for the last couple weeks. Not exactly my typical response! 😆

A little over two months ago, if you had asked me to predict the life that I’d be living today, I’d not have said anything even close to what I just mentioned. I would’ve assumed that I’d still be working at my comfortable, safe and relatively great job as a software engineer at an online banking company, enjoying free work lunch and saving for early retirement. I’d have also figured that my boyfriend Cameron and I would have found a new apartment around Plano and moved in together.

Alas, I’ve found that life often doesn’t work out like we all think it will — and this time, I’m happily going along with it. Change is good for us all, and my life has been overflowing with it lately.

For one, I’ve always wanted to start a blog, but I’d been constantly held back by the various negative thoughts resounding within my mind…

“A blog! Hah, what do you have that’s worthy of writing about? Do you actually think that people care about what you have to say? You already have a personal diary — that should be enough for you.”

…Yep, I’ll admit, sometimes my mind talks to me like that… and yes, sometimes it can really be an asshole, whether it’s actually right or not🙄

But, one of the best things about all of this change that I’ve been embracing in my life is that I can overcome the black cloud of negativity that has been a shroud over the way I think for years. After my recent spiritual awakening, it was like the metaphorical veil over my eyes had been lifted, and so many of the bad habits that I’d been cultivating started to wither and die. 😯

Wait… did he just say he had a “spiritual awakening”? Yep! But that’s a long story for another post. 😉

Anyway, I’m committed to this blog now, even if I still have doubts. Part of why I made myself tell a lot of the people that I care about that “I’m going to write a blog!” was so that I’d sort of “trick” myself into actually… y’know… doing it. I’ve found that it’s much easier for me to get things done when people have expectations for me. I know that’s not necessarily a good thing, but that’s how I was raised. I’ve operated this way for over two decades, so it’s going to take a bit more time to change that too! 😛

I’m going to try my best to keep my posts from being too lengthy, dull, or pointless. But I’m also going to work on being less filtered and just letting my thoughts pour out unfettered by offending anyone… as this is my own blog now, anyway!

So why did I finally decide to make a blog? Well, the main reason is to update my friends and family about my travels, as I leave for Asia on November 6th with no return date set yet. Secondary reasons are to have my own personal site, and to eventually get a portfolio-of-sorts up so that I can eventually find a new job in a few months.

That being said, I think I’ve written enough for my first post. Thanks for reading, and I do hope you’ll come back again!

Feel free to use the “Subscribe” function on the sidebar to be notified whenever I make a new post! I don’t expect that many people will, but I’d seriously be honored if you did! 🙂

Lastly, also please don’t hesitate to comment on my posts! I know it’s wishful thinking, but I’d really love to hear from all of you. 😀

– Brad

 

4 Comment

  1. Dr. Sridhara, Jennifer, Gladis, Laura and Glenda says: Reply

    Per Dr. Sridhara, “Have Fun! but please be careful!”
    AAIC staff wishes you luck and enjoy! We hope to hear from you soon along with pictures!

    1. jbradleyporter says: Reply

      Awww, thanks so much Dr. Sridhara, Jennifer, Gladis, Laura & Glenda!! 🙂 I will definitely miss you all!

  2. Devin Halpine says: Reply

    I’m so happy for you Brad. When you talk about needing a change, I find it so inspiring. I’ve been in a state of confusion/depression ever since I graduated college in 2014, just trying to figure out what to do with my life. Then health problems in the family only add to that mental anguish.
    I’ve always looked at your life with a tad bit of envy, I’ll admit. From my point of view, you had a beautiful condo, a new car, and an amazing career and it just looked like you had everything worked out. Plus, I adored your charming boyfriend Cameron as soon as I met him! If you had asked me, you seemingly lived the perfect life.
    Now that I’m reading this post, I see that you have had your share of personal struggles much like my own.
    The amazing thing is that you’re actively breaking free of your struggles, and going on the trip of a lifetime.
    That really gives me hope that I can do the same, and really start living my life.
    I love you Brad, and I’ll be following you along on this journey. I wish you and Cameron the best. <3

    1. jbradleyporter says: Reply

      Wow, thank you for such a deep comment, Devin!! 😅❤️

      I’m sorry to hear that you’ve experienced some mental woes in the past years tas well… life after college may have seemed perfect for me, and I def can’t say I haven’t lived a good life so far, but I certainly wasn’t happy a lot of the time, despite that… but truly, all of the unhappiness that I experienced… it was all because of my own mind.

      Happiness is fleeting, but I’m trying my best to be happy in all situations. It’s definitely not easy, but I’m doing better now than ever before. Our brains are an incredible part of us, and they can do much good, but they can also trick us into the opposite. Doing my best to stay in the present, realizing that my mind doesn’t know everything, knowing that there IS more to life than what we see… I could go on. I’ll text you 🙈

      Anyway, I’m going on this journey to further find myself and enhance my life and expansion of my soul. I love you too and hope that I’ll continue to inspire you to grow into that future version of yourself, that deep down, you know you can be. I’m finally trying to live my life to the fullest, and I know you can too!! <3

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